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I am an IDIOT. -edit-

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 10, 2009, 2:01 PM


I fucking hate myself now. I really do.

I fucking left my phone on the BUS today. And I have a fucking CONCERT.

And to the idiots who think I have my own fucking band, NO - I don't. It's a band as in tuba, trumpet, clarinet, etc. If you guys ACTUALLY payed attention to me, you'd know I played saxophone.

KJFNGNHERGTR

GOD I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING. GOD. Why can't things just go RIGHT for once?!

I want to just give up. What's the point? It's not like I can ever do anything right in the first place. *cant stop crying* I feel like a fucking failure... A fucking retarded failure... I really hate myself. Really, really, really.

--mini edit--

Sorry, you guys... didn't mean to call you guys names... I actually didn't mind when I first saw the messages - I just had a little freakout spaz attack thing and sort of lost it... *is still in the midst of losing it*

I don't know... I'm really sorry... Honest.... Really... *sob* I just don't know what to do... I have so much on my phone that I can't lose... What if my real dad tries to come in contact with me, and he can't anymore? What about all of my old friends who graduated already, and the only way I CAN get in touch with them is by calling them? What about all of the videos and pictures of Nala as a baby? Or marching band competitions from my freshman year? Or the North Carolinian mountains? What about those?

Jesus Christ - I'm giving myself such a huge headache... I'm going to try my best to stop thinking about it for a while and get ready for the concert, but... I just don't know what to do... It seems like every time I start feeling good about myself, something huge comes up and slaps me in the face, as if to say, "Yeah right - you? Smart? Forget it. Jump off a cliff, dumbass, and do us all a favor." I just feel like giving up... I can never live up to the expectations of myself and others, so why bother? Why bother getting out of bed? Or doing anything? *sniffle*

  • Mood: Regretful

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Welcome! ^^ I just thought I'd pop in and visit you again after a while of no talking. XD

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God created man first cuz there's always a rough-draft before that masterpiece.

Love your enemies - it will drive them NUTS!

And then God said, "John, come forth, and receive eternal life!" But John came fifth, and got a toaster. =C

Love for Jesus!
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Yay! :boogie: so, how's life? :3

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"We all go a little mad sometimes" - Norman Bates

Siamo tutti libri di sangue. Da qualunque parte ci aprano siamo rossi.

My day -> :mwahaha: :crash: :plotting: :typerhappy: :sleepy:
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Eh... At the moment, I'm feeling quite terrible...

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God created man first cuz there's always a rough-draft before that masterpiece.

Love your enemies - it will drive them NUTS!

And then God said, "John, come forth, and receive eternal life!" But John came fifth, and got a toaster. =C

Love for Jesus!
:iconinomuiro:
*goes reading journal and comes back*

Ok, first of all... HUG BANDWAGON IS CALLED FOR!!! :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle::hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug: :cuddle: :boogie:

Then: it will be fixed. There's the chance they will find the phone and give t back, and even if not, you'll find a way to contact all the people on it, through internet, or somehow. There's always a chance out of messes like this, even if at the moment you feel too agitated to see it. So take a long breathe, and do your best to cut off all thoughts about it till after the concert. I'm sure you'll do great there!!
I know the sensation of being smacked down by harsh reality every time I felt really good for a while... when I was 18 I even started fearing the times when I was happy with myself, proud of my results, because I thought there would invariably be a very harsh downside waiting for me just behind a corner... and then, slowly, I realized it didn't always had to be like this. That good times and bad times come and go, and some times the minor grievances are enough to be tragedies, and sometimes even smaller good things are pure awesomeness. That's life. Stay strong, you'll be better!! :hug:

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